i need

girl friends.
but when i think about it, girls annoy the fck outta me, so nvm.
LOL chillin w/ my guys are more fun anyway. ha!

so. . . this week was great! except the first day of school & how i was feelin that day. EW. why the fck was i even thinking that way, i DON'T love him, i'm EXTREMELY over that shit, and he can live the "life" he wants cos i seriously DGAF and his plans w/ her sound extremely ridiculous! he's a douchebag, a CHEATER(not only to me), a spoiled & unappreciative mf, & she's a PYSCHO stalker, what a perfect match! ahahahahah. I DON'T NEED THAT WHATSOEVER & i could do a million times better(:

hmmm. . & every day he's jussss been making me feel better and better about myself(: if only he wasn't a ________ . . . everything would be PERFECT. even bff said so! i'm not the kinna person to judge someone cos of their past, cos i knw everyone could change for the better if they set their mind to it, and i'm still sitting here thinking about what if we were together, would i be the girl to change his life? honestly, i wanna be that girl for him someday, and if not, for someone else worthy. yknw. . that positive energy in his life cos he's been through so much. . . to be able to take care of him the right way, to treat him with respect, with unconditional love, for him to be able to trust me and knw that i'll always be here, to be able to see him through his best and through his worst even in his vulnerable state, not cos i wanna see him unhappy, but cos i wanna be able to make him feel thought of, cared for, adored. i just love the fact that when i talk to him, it feel so natural. he's proven to me he could be trusted and of reliance. and others out there are such opposites. he's an amazing guy, i don't know if i'm ready to be involved, to be official, but when it happens, thats the kind of girl i'd be to a guy like him, cos he DESERVES it. & yes i'm talking about you, DREW(;