Even though we've sorta lost touch for a while, i know we'll continue where we left off.
I miss you, i really really do. Our lives have been hectic these past few days, so its impossible sometimes to talk.
I miss singing for you, you freestylin for me. I miss your voice, how cute your voicemail is. You sending me pictures thru txts, HAHA conceited;D Ahhhh, there's so much more, but i just miss you. . a whole lot.
Hope you're doing well though, yknw who go to if you need some ass whooopin lmfao.
imy hunnay.
XO, Christia
Sunday, August 30, 2009
Saturday, August 29, 2009
i need
girl friends.
but when i think about it, girls annoy the fck outta me, so nvm.
LOL chillin w/ my guys are more fun anyway. ha!
so. . . this week was great! except the first day of school & how i was feelin that day. EW. why the fck was i even thinking that way, i DON'T love him, i'm EXTREMELY over that shit, and he can live the "life" he wants cos i seriously DGAF and his plans w/ her sound extremely ridiculous! he's a douchebag, a CHEATER(not only to me), a spoiled & unappreciative mf, & she's a PYSCHO stalker, what a perfect match! ahahahahah. I DON'T NEED THAT WHATSOEVER & i could do a million times better(:
hmmm. . & every day he's jussss been making me feel better and better about myself(: if only he wasn't a ________ . . . everything would be PERFECT. even bff said so! i'm not the kinna person to judge someone cos of their past, cos i knw everyone could change for the better if they set their mind to it, and i'm still sitting here thinking about what if we were together, would i be the girl to change his life? honestly, i wanna be that girl for him someday, and if not, for someone else worthy. yknw. . that positive energy in his life cos he's been through so much. . . to be able to take care of him the right way, to treat him with respect, with unconditional love, for him to be able to trust me and knw that i'll always be here, to be able to see him through his best and through his worst even in his vulnerable state, not cos i wanna see him unhappy, but cos i wanna be able to make him feel thought of, cared for, adored. i just love the fact that when i talk to him, it feel so natural. he's proven to me he could be trusted and of reliance. and others out there are such opposites. he's an amazing guy, i don't know if i'm ready to be involved, to be official, but when it happens, thats the kind of girl i'd be to a guy like him, cos he DESERVES it. & yes i'm talking about you, DREW(;
but when i think about it, girls annoy the fck outta me, so nvm.
LOL chillin w/ my guys are more fun anyway. ha!
so. . . this week was great! except the first day of school & how i was feelin that day. EW. why the fck was i even thinking that way, i DON'T love him, i'm EXTREMELY over that shit, and he can live the "life" he wants cos i seriously DGAF and his plans w/ her sound extremely ridiculous! he's a douchebag, a CHEATER(not only to me), a spoiled & unappreciative mf, & she's a PYSCHO stalker, what a perfect match! ahahahahah. I DON'T NEED THAT WHATSOEVER & i could do a million times better(:
hmmm. . & every day he's jussss been making me feel better and better about myself(: if only he wasn't a ________ . . . everything would be PERFECT. even bff said so! i'm not the kinna person to judge someone cos of their past, cos i knw everyone could change for the better if they set their mind to it, and i'm still sitting here thinking about what if we were together, would i be the girl to change his life? honestly, i wanna be that girl for him someday, and if not, for someone else worthy. yknw. . that positive energy in his life cos he's been through so much. . . to be able to take care of him the right way, to treat him with respect, with unconditional love, for him to be able to trust me and knw that i'll always be here, to be able to see him through his best and through his worst even in his vulnerable state, not cos i wanna see him unhappy, but cos i wanna be able to make him feel thought of, cared for, adored. i just love the fact that when i talk to him, it feel so natural. he's proven to me he could be trusted and of reliance. and others out there are such opposites. he's an amazing guy, i don't know if i'm ready to be involved, to be official, but when it happens, thats the kind of girl i'd be to a guy like him, cos he DESERVES it. & yes i'm talking about you, DREW(;
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
DREW. . .
thank you love, for understanding me, being there for me, letting me vent out to you. i rly needed that tonight, and thank you for everything. . . just when I thought I've given up on you, you do something like this . . .<3
You're amazing, there. . . I said it(: Hahahaha. I'm looking forward to this weekend with you(;
You're amazing, there. . . I said it(: Hahahaha. I'm looking forward to this weekend with you(;
YKNW WHAT . . . its not even worth it talking about you, or her cos i'm not trying to waste my time talking about something insignificant. I juss wanna explain the fact that I was having one of those "off" days yesterday, and the blog that i juss deleted was only meant for MY eyes, but unfortunately I didn't delete it in time cos she had to fckn stalk me and read my shit. I'm completely okay now, I don't knw why I felt that way yesterday, I've moved on and been over that for so long now. So if YOU'RE still reading this, i would appreciate it if you STOP. I don't know you. I don't wanna know you. And I'm for sure that you DON'T want to know me, and what I'm capable of doing. I'm saying it nicely, PLEASE STOP LURKIN THRU MY SHIT! I need my space, and I have every reason for expressing my feelings on here, but I don't appreciate someone looking thru my posts every second of the day just because they're insecure. I'VE ENDED ALL CONTACT/COMMUNICATION with him just to ease your insecurity. MOVE ON WITH YOUR LIFE, and stop trying to find out about me, what I'm doing everyday, etc. YOU'RE JUST WASTING YOUR DAMN TIME. So STOP, I don't ever want to hear of you lurkin thru my shit ever again, I'M DEAD FCKN SERIOUS. I'm not trynna disrespect you at all, cos I don't know you, so do me a favor and STOP STALKING ME.
Monday, August 24, 2009
LAST FIRST DAY OF HIGH SCHOOL. . .
was NOT a very good day. i needa get my sched changed ASAP.
although thanks to erik for the in n out, kevin for the chipotles & golden spoon after school. wow i feel like a fatASSSSSS. omfg. but it made my day a bit better :)
I PRESENT YOU ALL . . . my future hubby GABE<3
*this one's for drew, cos he's always making me sing it over and over again. hahahaha<3
was NOT a very good day. i needa get my sched changed ASAP.
although thanks to erik for the in n out, kevin for the chipotles & golden spoon after school. wow i feel like a fatASSSSSS. omfg. but it made my day a bit better :)
I PRESENT YOU ALL . . . my future hubby GABE<3
*this one's for drew, cos he's always making me sing it over and over again. hahahaha<3
Friday, August 21, 2009
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
You used to be.
The one I'd call every night to talk to about nothing and everything.
The one I'd go to whenever I'm in need of advice.
The one person in my life who would never let me down.
The one who understood, above all others, the biggest and tiniest problems of my life.
The one I defended from others that talked down about you, mistreated you, &stabbed you in the back.
The one my parents saw on a regular basis and treated like family.
The one I'd spend every weekend with just going shopping, eating, talking, and we'd have a blast doing it.
The one I'd write notes to, to vent out whatever I'm feeling on a piece of paper, then in the end decorate it to make it look pretty, aside from all the random bs I was talking about on the note, lol.
The one to call me whenever something totally random happens, hang up, and go about the rest of your day.
The one who was my ride or die, who stuck with me thru all the bs that occurred, and never gave up on our friendship.
The one who I used to call my best friend.
But what happened to us? =/
I miss us. I miss having a best friend who chose me above the rest, but of course when you're in a relationship with somebody, that friendship tends to fade away, and the love of your life is superior to your best friend. I feared that this would happen to us, but every day I think about it, I feel too awkward to try and restore our friendship to how it used to be. It came from knowing each other so well to missing out on each other's lives and not knowing how the other person's doing. I believe we're different people now, and we're drifting more and more apart. It saddens me to say that, but we both know its the truth. All I have to say thank you, for being my best friend at one point in your life, for making me feel important, wanted, cared about. Of course I'd love to have you back in my life as my best friend, but we've grown apart, and have our own lives to live now.
The one I'd go to whenever I'm in need of advice.
The one person in my life who would never let me down.
The one who understood, above all others, the biggest and tiniest problems of my life.
The one I defended from others that talked down about you, mistreated you, &stabbed you in the back.
The one my parents saw on a regular basis and treated like family.
The one I'd spend every weekend with just going shopping, eating, talking, and we'd have a blast doing it.
The one I'd write notes to, to vent out whatever I'm feeling on a piece of paper, then in the end decorate it to make it look pretty, aside from all the random bs I was talking about on the note, lol.
The one to call me whenever something totally random happens, hang up, and go about the rest of your day.
The one who was my ride or die, who stuck with me thru all the bs that occurred, and never gave up on our friendship.
The one who I used to call my best friend.
But what happened to us? =/
I miss us. I miss having a best friend who chose me above the rest, but of course when you're in a relationship with somebody, that friendship tends to fade away, and the love of your life is superior to your best friend. I feared that this would happen to us, but every day I think about it, I feel too awkward to try and restore our friendship to how it used to be. It came from knowing each other so well to missing out on each other's lives and not knowing how the other person's doing. I believe we're different people now, and we're drifting more and more apart. It saddens me to say that, but we both know its the truth. All I have to say thank you, for being my best friend at one point in your life, for making me feel important, wanted, cared about. Of course I'd love to have you back in my life as my best friend, but we've grown apart, and have our own lives to live now.
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
I think too much.
I don't know how to start this blog. So bare with me here. . . We met in the most unusual way ever. Although, I'd say it's rather cute how we met, haha. Kevin & John didn't feel like riding the wet ride with me, so I went alone. . LMFAO I know right, poor me w/ my two bestfriends being pussy to ride the wet ride while I was so down for it, haha. Anyway, I was walking toward the line, when all of a sudden you asked, "Excuse me, are you riding alone?" I then answered, "Yeah, my guy friends are lame and they won't ride w/ me." Being so sweet of you, you asked me if I wanted to ride with you and your group. I answered YES even though I didn't know you, cos I just didn't wanna be a loner in that ride by myself with no one to enjoy it with. LOL. But anyway, it was ironic to me how we both lived in Las Vegas, and we live about 15 mins from each other. You asked for my number saying we should meet up again in Vegas sometime, so I gave it to you. I didn't think you'd actually keep in contact w/ me cos you were w/ your friends as I was with mine, on top of that, I didn't even catch your name, hahahah. About 20 seconds later, I get a text saying "It was nice talking to you, Christia. Why do you have to leave so early though? :(" LOL I had to leave early cos I wasn't supposed to be there in the FIRST place, lmfao. Anyway, we texted that whole night, that whole morning, and the rest of the days that came. It led from text, to finally talking on the phone every night. You'd always call me after I got out of work, but sometimes I'd let you call, ignore it, let you call again, ignore it, til you leave a voicemail saying you'll call back . . . Just to test the waters and see if you'd still be interested in me even if I didn't answer, haha ;D.
We'd never run out of things to say in our late night convos. One minute we're talking about our past, next minute we're talking about music, next we're talking about evolution and how we both think that 2012 is juss bs LOL, then next we're talking about how we're such fatasses and how much we love all kinds of food. Haha, it's amazing. Our first night talking is a night I'll always remember. You opened up to me so much, not even knowing me at all yet, but you told me about the most intimate parts of your life, like your family, your past, your hopes and dreams, I was just amazed by it all. I love how I'm so myself around you. I don't have to try and impress you, and you like me for me. I can be real around you, NO FAKE BULLSHIT, and you love that. I never thought I'd fall for you, but everyday you tend to break this wall down that I've put up, and I let myself fall deeper into you. You make me happy, but it scares me to be treated so good, cos I'm not the kinna girl who gets this treatment from guys. You told me you'd go out of your way for me, just to see me, just to be with me, and that FUCKING SCARES ME. That is why I don't think it'll ever happen between us. You're just too amazing, too nice, too considerate. But someone else better deserves this. I'm just not the kind of girl who's used to it. That is why I don't think it'll work. I mean, don't get me wrong. I'd love to be with a guy like you, but after all the heartbreak I've put up with, I'm scared to be with someone who treats me so good & makes me feel good about myself, cos I feel like its too good to be true.
Or maybe I'm juss thinking too much. =/
We'd never run out of things to say in our late night convos. One minute we're talking about our past, next minute we're talking about music, next we're talking about evolution and how we both think that 2012 is juss bs LOL, then next we're talking about how we're such fatasses and how much we love all kinds of food. Haha, it's amazing. Our first night talking is a night I'll always remember. You opened up to me so much, not even knowing me at all yet, but you told me about the most intimate parts of your life, like your family, your past, your hopes and dreams, I was just amazed by it all. I love how I'm so myself around you. I don't have to try and impress you, and you like me for me. I can be real around you, NO FAKE BULLSHIT, and you love that. I never thought I'd fall for you, but everyday you tend to break this wall down that I've put up, and I let myself fall deeper into you. You make me happy, but it scares me to be treated so good, cos I'm not the kinna girl who gets this treatment from guys. You told me you'd go out of your way for me, just to see me, just to be with me, and that FUCKING SCARES ME. That is why I don't think it'll ever happen between us. You're just too amazing, too nice, too considerate. But someone else better deserves this. I'm just not the kind of girl who's used to it. That is why I don't think it'll work. I mean, don't get me wrong. I'd love to be with a guy like you, but after all the heartbreak I've put up with, I'm scared to be with someone who treats me so good & makes me feel good about myself, cos I feel like its too good to be true.
Or maybe I'm juss thinking too much. =/
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
Monday, August 10, 2009
Go on.
I believe it's come to the point where I'm tired of waiting on you. I gave it time, but no honey, I'm finished. Coming into this, I should've known not to be attached, cos the only person that'll get hurt was me. Others warned me that you were the "free love" type, to be careful around you, but I didn't listen and I let myself fall this deep. So without you knowing, I'm letting you go. That way I don't have to exert any more effort to let you know cos I'm more than exhausted in trying when nothing progresses.
Quoting a friend of mine, "Christia's heart seems to be an easy one to get into." Yeaaaaah she's right. I'm just too stubborn when it comes to love, and I put my guard down to guys too easily when I should give them something to work for. I don't listen to what anyone advises me, cos I feel like I know more than them. When really, I'm the one who needs the biggest lesson, cos the test is something I tend to fail at.
Quoting a friend of mine, "Christia's heart seems to be an easy one to get into." Yeaaaaah she's right. I'm just too stubborn when it comes to love, and I put my guard down to guys too easily when I should give them something to work for. I don't listen to what anyone advises me, cos I feel like I know more than them. When really, I'm the one who needs the biggest lesson, cos the test is something I tend to fail at.
Friday, August 7, 2009
Wednesday, August 5, 2009
Despite alllllllll the negative that has happened, the future is looking brighter than ever :)
Have the most amazing guys as my best friends I can rely on 24/7. Even though they're crazy as helll, ha i love my BFF & bests!
Every day, the fam & I are gettin closer & closer, we've had our share of ups&downs these past few days, but things are goin great now. Keeping my life busy, it's goood to be productive! But w/ working hard, one's gotta reward themselves once inna while righttt? So thasss why I'm so excited next week to spend time w/ bests and roadtrip! Knotts berry farm, huntington, & shopppping WHOOOOOOOOOO :)!
& last but not least, it's always greeaaaat to have that *friend* lmfao. Mmmmm he knows who he is<3 Half boys are pretty fckn sexy eh? hahaha.
Welllll i'm off to work! Mommy's sleeepin right behind me, ha. Update you later, byeeee ;D
Have the most amazing guys as my best friends I can rely on 24/7. Even though they're crazy as helll, ha i love my BFF & bests!
Every day, the fam & I are gettin closer & closer, we've had our share of ups&downs these past few days, but things are goin great now. Keeping my life busy, it's goood to be productive! But w/ working hard, one's gotta reward themselves once inna while righttt? So thasss why I'm so excited next week to spend time w/ bests and roadtrip! Knotts berry farm, huntington, & shopppping WHOOOOOOOOOO :)!
& last but not least, it's always greeaaaat to have that *friend* lmfao. Mmmmm he knows who he is<3 Half boys are pretty fckn sexy eh? hahaha.
Welllll i'm off to work! Mommy's sleeepin right behind me, ha. Update you later, byeeee ;D
Monday, August 3, 2009
To Mikka & Louie
mikka & louie, i LOVE you both so much, you've protected me through everything & even if my parents are blaming this shit on you, know that i am forever grateful for you both. if it wasn't for you, i'd be seriously injured or dead by now. you ARE my family & even if i don't see you guys for a longgg time, nothing will change that. i love you, don't be sorry pls, we're all okay now & thass all that matters.
& it just dawned on me, imagine if everyone from the kickback stayed a few minutes longer, god knows what could've happened to ANY one of us. wowwwwww, god is VERY good indeed :)
& it just dawned on me, imagine if everyone from the kickback stayed a few minutes longer, god knows what could've happened to ANY one of us. wowwwwww, god is VERY good indeed :)
Life gave me a second chance.
Waking up this morning was unsettling after all the events that happened a couple hours back. Although I gladly say, I'm so thankful to be alive. This experience is by far the most scariest thing I have ever encountered. I never thought I would see the day again. I never thought I would be able to hug my parents and tell them how much I love them. I never thought I would be at home typing this right now to share this story. I never thought I'd hear any of my friend's comforting voices again to tell me everything's going to be okay. But most of all, I never thought I'd be alive.
Last night I was over at my cousin's condo for a farewell kickback for his boyfriend. About fifteen of us were in there chillin, having a couple of drinks, talking, etc. As the night progressed it reached 10:30-10:45ish and my cousin had curfew, so some of us walked her home to her condo since it was in the same community. While walking back, my cousin, her best friend, and I saw this mexican gang trying to call us over to join them. We're thinking, 'oh god, these lame asses have no life,' so we snobbishly ignored them. It was about 1:30am when people started leaving the kickback, and since I was pretty gone that night I was advised to sleep over cos I couldn't drive my car to my other cousin's place to sleep over cos I drank and was already a bit intoxicated, lol.
I remember the exact time this happened because I was making a phone call to my friend before I went to bed, it was 1:44 am. She didn't answer, so I thought of just going to sleep. Literally TEN SECONDS later, I heard two gunshots and I felt glass hitting my face so I screamed cos I thought I was hit. Fortunately, it was just glass and no bullets hit anyone. My cousin whispered to me to stop screaming and to crawl as fast as I can to the bathroom so I wouldn't be seen. One by one we were all in the bathroom hiding from whoever shot at us. We immediately called 911, keeping our voices lowered so no one would hear us. We told the dispatcher everything so she sent the police for us. I was in such fear that my whole body was shaking uncontrollably, but at the same time I was getting so frustrated because the police were taking such a long time to get here. We were hiding in the bathroom for about 20-30 minutes, but it felt like HOURS in there. While we were hiding we heard leaves and bushes moving so we thought they're near the house. We were so paranoid of the noises of crackling since we thought they were trying to break in through the broken glass window and get in the house. A few minutes later the dispatcher told us the police are outside of the front door, but scared as we were we didn't want to take the risk of getting out of the bathroom. Although we heard "911's here!" so we thought, okay we need to get out of here and let them in. Thank goodness it was them, I'VE NEVER BEEN MORE HAPPY TO SEE POLICE IN MY LIFE! I walked out of the bathroom and got my cellphone that was on the bed and I looked up to see where the gunshots were, and it was right on top of the bed I was sleeping on, just a couple of feet down and I would've gotten shot at. I told this to the police and they investigated it, they said it wasn't just a bullet, it was a whole bunch of pellets that had gotten fired! I felt the bits of glass on my feet so I got my shoes and put em on. My purse was near the lamp and glass went inside! I was borrowing Andrew's camera for the day so I looked for it, and thank goodness it still worked! Anyway, the police said that the people who did this was a mexican gang because all the neighbors saw them too and complained to the police that they were making trouble in the neighborhood. It makes me so mad because they're so heartless doing this for no specific reason, and now my cousin's condo is a hot mess and so many damages are there, his boyfriend that just flew in from san francisco visited him but now he must not want to come back since this shit happened, and this experience is making me paranoid, traumatized, and scared shitless.
After all this I called Kevin, Andrew, and my mom. I was scared to call my mom cos I didn't wanna wake her in the middle of the night since it was about 2:30-3:00 am already and if I told her she'd be so worried that she might get a heart attack or something, but I didn't wanna wait cos I know she needed to know. Although to my mistake, she was PISSSED OFFFFF and she was yelling and screaming through the fone. I tried being calm and tell her I'm okay, but all she could do is blame my cousins for letting this happen to me. I told her it wasn't any of their faults cos we didn't know this would've happened, but she got pissed because I wasn't spending the night at my other cousin's house where her parents were there, instead I slept at my cousin's who lived alone. So now I just feel really bad because my parents don't trust me being with them anymore =/ Although I know things will patch up later on and I'm just extremely glad to be alive right now. I really don't know what's going to happen now. FOR SURE my parents won't let me go out in a long time, and its too bad because kevin, john, and I planned a roadtrip next monday, so maybe this is giving us a sign that we REALLY shouldn't do the roadtrip anymore. I know that I don't want to go anymore either since I'm paranoid now and message to Andrew, YOU'RE RIGHT.
Through this traumatic experience I did learn a couple things; that life really is too short so I shouldn't take things for granted, and I shouldn't waste my time doing things that won't be successful for me in the future. Everything happens for a reason, it REALLY sucks that it had to take THIS to help me realize what I should be doing in my life, and not wasting my life on things that would get me in any kind of danger. Whoever is reading this, I just want you to know to appreciate the things in your life, the people in your life, and to stay true to the things you want to do to become successful, whatever that may be. Life lesson LEARNED, but I really am just so thankful and grateful for being here today.
Last night I was over at my cousin's condo for a farewell kickback for his boyfriend. About fifteen of us were in there chillin, having a couple of drinks, talking, etc. As the night progressed it reached 10:30-10:45ish and my cousin had curfew, so some of us walked her home to her condo since it was in the same community. While walking back, my cousin, her best friend, and I saw this mexican gang trying to call us over to join them. We're thinking, 'oh god, these lame asses have no life,' so we snobbishly ignored them. It was about 1:30am when people started leaving the kickback, and since I was pretty gone that night I was advised to sleep over cos I couldn't drive my car to my other cousin's place to sleep over cos I drank and was already a bit intoxicated, lol.
I remember the exact time this happened because I was making a phone call to my friend before I went to bed, it was 1:44 am. She didn't answer, so I thought of just going to sleep. Literally TEN SECONDS later, I heard two gunshots and I felt glass hitting my face so I screamed cos I thought I was hit. Fortunately, it was just glass and no bullets hit anyone. My cousin whispered to me to stop screaming and to crawl as fast as I can to the bathroom so I wouldn't be seen. One by one we were all in the bathroom hiding from whoever shot at us. We immediately called 911, keeping our voices lowered so no one would hear us. We told the dispatcher everything so she sent the police for us. I was in such fear that my whole body was shaking uncontrollably, but at the same time I was getting so frustrated because the police were taking such a long time to get here. We were hiding in the bathroom for about 20-30 minutes, but it felt like HOURS in there. While we were hiding we heard leaves and bushes moving so we thought they're near the house. We were so paranoid of the noises of crackling since we thought they were trying to break in through the broken glass window and get in the house. A few minutes later the dispatcher told us the police are outside of the front door, but scared as we were we didn't want to take the risk of getting out of the bathroom. Although we heard "911's here!" so we thought, okay we need to get out of here and let them in. Thank goodness it was them, I'VE NEVER BEEN MORE HAPPY TO SEE POLICE IN MY LIFE! I walked out of the bathroom and got my cellphone that was on the bed and I looked up to see where the gunshots were, and it was right on top of the bed I was sleeping on, just a couple of feet down and I would've gotten shot at. I told this to the police and they investigated it, they said it wasn't just a bullet, it was a whole bunch of pellets that had gotten fired! I felt the bits of glass on my feet so I got my shoes and put em on. My purse was near the lamp and glass went inside! I was borrowing Andrew's camera for the day so I looked for it, and thank goodness it still worked! Anyway, the police said that the people who did this was a mexican gang because all the neighbors saw them too and complained to the police that they were making trouble in the neighborhood. It makes me so mad because they're so heartless doing this for no specific reason, and now my cousin's condo is a hot mess and so many damages are there, his boyfriend that just flew in from san francisco visited him but now he must not want to come back since this shit happened, and this experience is making me paranoid, traumatized, and scared shitless.
After all this I called Kevin, Andrew, and my mom. I was scared to call my mom cos I didn't wanna wake her in the middle of the night since it was about 2:30-3:00 am already and if I told her she'd be so worried that she might get a heart attack or something, but I didn't wanna wait cos I know she needed to know. Although to my mistake, she was PISSSED OFFFFF and she was yelling and screaming through the fone. I tried being calm and tell her I'm okay, but all she could do is blame my cousins for letting this happen to me. I told her it wasn't any of their faults cos we didn't know this would've happened, but she got pissed because I wasn't spending the night at my other cousin's house where her parents were there, instead I slept at my cousin's who lived alone. So now I just feel really bad because my parents don't trust me being with them anymore =/ Although I know things will patch up later on and I'm just extremely glad to be alive right now. I really don't know what's going to happen now. FOR SURE my parents won't let me go out in a long time, and its too bad because kevin, john, and I planned a roadtrip next monday, so maybe this is giving us a sign that we REALLY shouldn't do the roadtrip anymore. I know that I don't want to go anymore either since I'm paranoid now and message to Andrew, YOU'RE RIGHT.
Through this traumatic experience I did learn a couple things; that life really is too short so I shouldn't take things for granted, and I shouldn't waste my time doing things that won't be successful for me in the future. Everything happens for a reason, it REALLY sucks that it had to take THIS to help me realize what I should be doing in my life, and not wasting my life on things that would get me in any kind of danger. Whoever is reading this, I just want you to know to appreciate the things in your life, the people in your life, and to stay true to the things you want to do to become successful, whatever that may be. Life lesson LEARNED, but I really am just so thankful and grateful for being here today.
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