School is less than a month away and I'm DREADING IT, but then again I'm excited since its senior year! I think I'm gonna drop out of Chemistry 2 AP again, I just don't think I'll be able to handle it since Chemistry is my worst subject. I know Andrew is already disappointed in me since this is the SECOND time i've dropped out of that class. LOL, sorry bff! I believe that's the only thing keeping me from being excited in going back to school. Other than that, I'm pretty much okay with going back. AND FOR ONCE IN MY LIFE, I'm not returning to school with any drama surrounding me. Haha. Although I rly can care less, cos 75% of the people in my school are lame anyway, and every other school in Vegas dislikes my school. So no one's worth the bs. This summer has been amazing though! Only one thing missing. . but I refuse to say what via blog. LMAO. The next couple of weeks will be EPIC! ROADTRIP w/ the bests to cali, the beach, SHOPPPPPINGGGG SPREEEE what what!? our stay @ the M resort, and hopefully spending more weekends w/ the entourage goin clubbbbin fshoooo. & last, but definitely not the least my BMW! I've beeen savin' up all summer for it, and in a week it'll be MINE<3 I CANNOT WAIT!

STALKER.

wtfck i have one now? LMFAO. honey, lurkin thru my shit won't do you any good. did you knw jealousy is a turn off? hahaha. mmmmhm.

Wowwwww, amazing cover :) & this song explains it all.

INSOMNIA!

INSOMNIA. A rather interesting phone call also contributed tonight for my lack of sleep once again. Don't rly knw what to say bout that =/
Well since I can't sleep, surveys are my guilty pleasure LOL.


Would you introduce the last person you kissed to your parents?
Maaaaybe ;)

Are you and the last person you kissed in a relationship or just friends?
I consider him and I. . . "special" buddies. Well for now that is. haha

Do you like to make the first move?
Sometimes ;)

Did the one person who hurt you the most in your life apologize?
This question is very ironic.

What's something you really want right now?
Ah, idk.

Looking back in time did you ever waste your time on a certain boy or girl?
Mmm, guilty.

If the last person you kissed tried to kiss you again, would you kiss back?
Aha, suuuure ;)

Has anyone ever sang to you?
Yesssss<3

Can a boy and girl be friends without having feelings for each other?
Most my bestfriends are guys anyway so yesss of course!

Could you ever see yourself with your ex back together?
I could, but i prefer not to.

Have you heard a song that reminds you of someone today?
Mmmmhmm.

Do you say sorry first?
When its necessary.

If the last person you kissed saw you kissing someone else, would they be mad?
Uhmmm, haha i don't rly know. Probably not.

Is it usually easy for someone to make you smile?
Yessss doesn't take much to do that !

Who's in your profile picture with you?
Jussssss meeeee beyotchh lmao.

How many days until your next birthday?
Less than 6 mos.

Are you tired?
Exhausted, but once again, insomnia kickin in.

Has a guy sat on your bed before?
Aha 24 hrs ago.

What time did you go to sleep last night?
LOL when kenji left, rounddddd 6-7ish.

Have you ever cried from being so mad?
Mhm

What color is your shirt?
White w/ brown, blue, red

Would you rather have long or short hair?
LONGGG! I miss my long hair =///

Have you ever slept in the same bed as your friend?
Fsho

Do you hate being alone?
I like my freedom gotta admit.

Would you have sex with the person you stole this from?
Ahahaa nooooo sry.

What's your favorite season of the year?
Fall, idk there's juss something bout the weather being slightly cold, leaves fallin on the ground, the atmosphere feels a bit peaceful, i love it =)

This time last year, can you remember who you liked?
Oh yes indeed.

Are you wearing jeans right now?
Naaah, who wears jeans to bed ?

Are any of your friends virgins?
Hahahahahah, well they're misssinnn out LMFAO.

Where did you get the shirt you are wearing?
ON.

Who was the last person to call you babe?
Edgar LOL

Day been rough?
It's been all sorts of things.

Do you think a lot of people think bad things about you?
I hope not . But then again idc ahaha.

Who knows a secret about you that no one else knows?
The bestssss.

When was the last time a member of the opposite sex hugged you?
Yesterday morning ;)

What are your plans for tomorrow?
Well today actually since its 5 am, mmmmm lunch w/ mom&dad, mall w/ kebbs, movies w/ kenji, prolly end up @ mikka or louie's pad tonight.

What exactly are you wearing?
hmmmm wouldn't you like to kno ? hehehe.

Are you taller than 5’5”?
Mmm noooo =/ ahaha i'm funnn sized.

Ever thought of having plastic surgery?
LOL guilty.

If you could move away, no questions asked, where would you move?
To my own place w/ andrew as my roomate !

Would you go out in public right this moment?
Mmm yeaaah, but is any place open at 5 am?! LOL

Is your birthday soon?
Naahh

Is there anyone you would seriously punch right now if you had the chance?
To slap the sense into him, ITS NOT THE END OF THE FCKN WORLD.

What were you doing at 12 AM last night?
Watching Van Wilder:College! LMFAO i looove it.

Amaaaaaazinnnng morning!

Oh yessssss it was ;)

You really have a way with words, and I mean realllyyyyyy. Oh my goodness, I've never met anyone like you. You're so much fun to talk to, hopefully fun to be around as well, but we'll see bout that tonight ;) Mmmmmmm<3

LG. Life's Goood.

Wowwwwwwwww, I feel like I haven't blogged in decades. Everything's been really fast paced, hectic, and busy for me this week. Although it was my bestfriend Chanel's birthday on July 6, and the CRAC+R bam reunited juss two days ago and had an AMAZING day! It went better than I expected, i love those girls so much and I'm just so happy with my sisterhood kinship with them. Being with them made me realize how mature we've grown these past 2-3 years. We put past problems aside and started over a new leaf, it just feels like nothing ever happened and we picked up where we left of. I jussss wanna tell you girls I love you so much. My bestfriend Chanel who never gave up on me, April, Renalynn, and even Rachel. . you're all like sisters to me and I'm blessed to have you all in my life.

Today was amazing. I went with my mom to her co-worker's party and talked with her close co-worker who's pretty much like my advisor now, our talk was simply amazing. I don't wanna get into too much detail with it cos then this post will probably be wayyyy too long, but all I have to say was that I've never felt so empowered in my life. She made me realize so many things in life, she opened my eyes to a whole new perspective of the world, she assisted me in getting back on track with achieving my life-long goals. Let's just say she gave me the right "push" to succeed, and one day I know i will. What touched my heart was her comment to my mom saying how proud my parents should be of me, how they should listen to me more often, and how she hopes one day she'll have a daughter with the same mindset and heart as I do. I've never heard those words before from any other adult, so it literally almost made me cry when she said that. With that comment, my mom and I talked throughout the whole car ride back home and we talked about all my goals and plans for my future. She was so impressed because she didn't know I was really thinking that much ahead. & I know she was happy to hear the statement I said that in the future I hope to get an excellent and rewarding job in the medical field and hope to one day have them retire and for me to be financially secure to support them and give them the best of everything and that one day be able pay them back for everything they've done for me. My mom was incredibly happy to hear that and it just made me feel so good that she knows that I do not take my parents for granted and that I really do appreciate everything they've done for me.

Everything that's happened this week just feels so fitting. I can probably say that this has been the best week of my summer so far. I'm finally on back on track now, whatever happened in the past is where it belongs, I am now "soaring to new heights with a clear vision of the future". HAHAHAHA i totally jocked that saying from my school motto. hahahaha. S'all gooooood :)))

"To live with the knowledge given by the people who have went through what I want to go through is the path to success. Though there will be hardships, nothing will stop me from becoming what i can to the fullest."
-Wayne Santos

I hate my hair. I miss my long, straight, smooth hair. Thanks to working and having to put up my hair at both jobs, my hair is now fuuuuuucked up, wavy, and the "shine" just isn't there anymore. On top of that, it's not growing fast enough! Grow alreadyyyyy haaiiirrr! I tend to make stupid decisions when I'm bored, LMAO especially chopping my hair off that one day. Oh joy.

Today was my meeting @ popeyes/stand by test @ the DMV/work @ quiznos/supposedly party @ ryokos.
. . . Popeyes meeting lasted an hour & almost and wasn't that bad. Andrew keeps complaining saying he's so not used to me being in a higher position than him, that fcker. Haha. & my manager announced that I sold the MOST apple pies in one day! SEVENTEEN apple pies! Hahahaha, that's pretty sad to be proud of, but fck it! My job @ popeyes is fun and I love my coworkers, especially now Andrew's working w/ me! It rly is weird to have him below me though, I'm so used to being taught the right ways of life by him, haha but now I'm the one teaching him how to work.
. . . DMV. I HATE GOING TO THAT STINKING PLACE! I failed my road test the first time; my permit expired so I had to renew it and do the written test again; tried going on stand by to take my road test a month later that, but my parents got impatient and so we left even though I was so close to being called; so i scheduled my next road test for July 10th but I was scared of failing again so I went to the DMV today to try and take the test, but once again, they take foreverrrrr and there were seven names ahead of me and it was already 1pm and I had work @ 4pm so we had to go home cos we wouldn't have made it. UGHHHHH getting my license is a total pain in the ass. I feel like I'm never gonna get it no matter how hard I try, no matter how much my mom makes me go to CHURCH W/ HER EVERY WEDNESDAY AND PRAY TO GET MY LICENSE haaah like that's gonna work, I FEEL LIKE I'M NEVER GONNA GET THAT DAMN THING. I'm a good driver anyway, why do I have to wait so damn long to get it? THE DMV IS MY LEAST FAVORITE PLACE TO GO next to the dentist haha.
. . . Work @ quiznos was actually not that bad today. It got pretty busy so it made my shift feel faster. I HATE WORKING WHEN IT'S SLOW. Yeah its easy, but the day feels so much longer. Working there gets kind of annoying cos I feel so new to it even though everyone there is new since the place only opened two weeks ago, but I feel like everyone knows more than me and I don't like having that feeling of being the "rookie". My coworker named Shawvez is pretttttyyyyy fine though, haha, but BOOOOO he has a gf =/ I hate it when all the fine guys are taken! Oh well, life goes on haha. I MADE $3 in tips today! Hahahahaha, you're prolly thinking WTF? Only $3? Well money's money. . so you gotta be happy w/ what you make. LOL
. . . Party @ Ryoko's place. Cancelled. Moved to tomorrow, problem is idk if i can go since I got fambam in town. I wish I was closer to my cousins who are arriving cos everytime they're here it seems like they dread the place and always look so bored. I hate that. They barely even start a conversation or ask me how I am. Whatever though, I'll try to get out of it & go to Ryoko's.

Aahhhhhh, I hope I at least have some fun this weekend!