To my jerk, LOL

Even though we've sorta lost touch for a while, i know we'll continue where we left off.
I miss you, i really really do. Our lives have been hectic these past few days, so its impossible sometimes to talk.
I miss singing for you, you freestylin for me. I miss your voice, how cute your voicemail is. You sending me pictures thru txts, HAHA conceited;D Ahhhh, there's so much more, but i just miss you. . a whole lot.

Hope you're doing well though, yknw who go to if you need some ass whooopin lmfao.
imy hunnay.

XO, Christia

i need

girl friends.
but when i think about it, girls annoy the fck outta me, so nvm.
LOL chillin w/ my guys are more fun anyway. ha!

so. . . this week was great! except the first day of school & how i was feelin that day. EW. why the fck was i even thinking that way, i DON'T love him, i'm EXTREMELY over that shit, and he can live the "life" he wants cos i seriously DGAF and his plans w/ her sound extremely ridiculous! he's a douchebag, a CHEATER(not only to me), a spoiled & unappreciative mf, & she's a PYSCHO stalker, what a perfect match! ahahahahah. I DON'T NEED THAT WHATSOEVER & i could do a million times better(:

hmmm. . & every day he's jussss been making me feel better and better about myself(: if only he wasn't a ________ . . . everything would be PERFECT. even bff said so! i'm not the kinna person to judge someone cos of their past, cos i knw everyone could change for the better if they set their mind to it, and i'm still sitting here thinking about what if we were together, would i be the girl to change his life? honestly, i wanna be that girl for him someday, and if not, for someone else worthy. yknw. . that positive energy in his life cos he's been through so much. . . to be able to take care of him the right way, to treat him with respect, with unconditional love, for him to be able to trust me and knw that i'll always be here, to be able to see him through his best and through his worst even in his vulnerable state, not cos i wanna see him unhappy, but cos i wanna be able to make him feel thought of, cared for, adored. i just love the fact that when i talk to him, it feel so natural. he's proven to me he could be trusted and of reliance. and others out there are such opposites. he's an amazing guy, i don't know if i'm ready to be involved, to be official, but when it happens, thats the kind of girl i'd be to a guy like him, cos he DESERVES it. & yes i'm talking about you, DREW(;

DREW. . .

thank you love, for understanding me, being there for me, letting me vent out to you. i rly needed that tonight, and thank you for everything. . . just when I thought I've given up on you, you do something like this . . .<3
You're amazing, there. . . I said it(: Hahahaha. I'm looking forward to this weekend with you(;

YKNW WHAT . . . its not even worth it talking about you, or her cos i'm not trying to waste my time talking about something insignificant. I juss wanna explain the fact that I was having one of those "off" days yesterday, and the blog that i juss deleted was only meant for MY eyes, but unfortunately I didn't delete it in time cos she had to fckn stalk me and read my shit. I'm completely okay now, I don't knw why I felt that way yesterday, I've moved on and been over that for so long now. So if YOU'RE still reading this, i would appreciate it if you STOP. I don't know you. I don't wanna know you. And I'm for sure that you DON'T want to know me, and what I'm capable of doing. I'm saying it nicely, PLEASE STOP LURKIN THRU MY SHIT! I need my space, and I have every reason for expressing my feelings on here, but I don't appreciate someone looking thru my posts every second of the day just because they're insecure. I'VE ENDED ALL CONTACT/COMMUNICATION with him just to ease your insecurity. MOVE ON WITH YOUR LIFE, and stop trying to find out about me, what I'm doing everyday, etc. YOU'RE JUST WASTING YOUR DAMN TIME. So STOP, I don't ever want to hear of you lurkin thru my shit ever again, I'M DEAD FCKN SERIOUS. I'm not trynna disrespect you at all, cos I don't know you, so do me a favor and STOP STALKING ME.

LAST FIRST DAY OF HIGH SCHOOL. . .
was NOT a very good day. i needa get my sched changed ASAP.
although thanks to erik for the in n out, kevin for the chipotles & golden spoon after school. wow i feel like a fatASSSSSS. omfg. but it made my day a bit better :)


I PRESENT YOU ALL . . . my future hubby GABE<3

*this one's for drew, cos he's always making me sing it over and over again. hahahaha<3

You the fuhckinn' besttttt<3

MY CURRENT ADDICTION:

GABE BONDOC, lol. aaaaaahmaaaaazinggggg.