Jusss 'cos

I can't stay mad at you. You somehow keep me up even if you were the one I was mopin' about in the first place. But what's bothering me you ask? The fact that after all this time, you have no clue that you're the one i have my eyes on. I'm starting to care for you more and more each day. I'm starting to fall for you and that scares me 'cos I'm scared to get hurt again. & out of all the people I know, you're the one who's endured so much in their past being cheated on & lied to by the girl you've loved for almost 5 years. & if what you said was true about you being faithful the whole time, then wow, it's very rare to find guys like you nowadays and that's something that shouldn't be taken for granted. IF only you knew though. As for now, being friends with you is something I'm thankful for and I'm grateful I met a wonderful guy like you. You have a big heart & one day I hope you realize that there's a special place in there for me<3.


Haaaaa, corny I know! ;p
But honestly, you're racin' through my mind like 100 mph and I can't help but to tell the world bout a wonderful guy like you :)

Repeat?

This ALWAYS happens to me. I just don't get it.
I admit, my friends are gorgeous & i love them to death. But once I start falling for a guy, guess who they end up having a thing for. . . EXACTLY.

W/e though. I'm just tired of everything.

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ugggghhhhh i just feeel like crying it all out & releasing this inner frustration!
this is the worst feeeling ever. oh goooodness i despise you. i loathe people like you.

Once a cheater, always a cheater.

NOW I KNOW THE TRUTH. YOU BIG LYING, DECEIVING, CHEATING, PERVERTED MOTHERFUCKER.

I always had a gut feeeling of why that happened. NOW I KNOW WHY. You tried making me feel guilty for hurting your feelings? You made me feel like you getting with her was my KARMA? FUCK YOU. I always suspected you cheated, but now i know the TRUTH. I FEEL SORRY FOR EVERY GIRL THAT FALLS FOR YOUR SHIT. No girl deserves to be with someone like you cos all you'll do is hurt them in the end. & JUST TO PUT IT OUT THERE, STOP CALLING ME TO TRY AND GET WITH ME MOTHERFUCKER! I DON'T WANT YOUR ASS AND I NEVER WILL. I admit, it was my mistake for taking you back after the first time you cheated. But I was right all along to break up with you. I just regret having the guilt trip to think that I hurt you, but now i know the truth once and for all. PEACE BITCH! Karma's a real fcknnnn BITCH! I hope you get what you deserve.

You have to take what life gives you.

& stop complaining, stop bitching, and just work. Work your ass off. Even if it takes longer than you expected, work for it. Cos in the end, it'll be all worth it right? Hmmmmmm. . . I hope so.

Its a tradition

For me to watch asian dramas/movies every summer, spring break, and winter break.
Just finished this one, its such a beautiful story!!!!!

"A Millionaire's First Love"



Recommend this one if you're into these kinna things, haha. I absolutely love 'emmmm.

Getting ahead of myself.

Sometimes we all need to stop thinking. STOP WORRYING. Quit wondering about what would've happened, what could happen, what the next step is, and all that nonsense our mind keeps on addressing. THAT IS MY BIGGEST PROBLEM. I can't just go with the flow, I have to picture a situation exactly how I want it, but 99.9% of the time I end up getting disappointed. This happens to me EVERY TIME, but I still cannot manage to learn from it. It does me no good, but I wonder why I still do it? I think its because I expect too much from people. Not a single person has ever FULLY satisfied me and that accounts for friendships and relationships. Hence the word FULLY, I'm not saying I've not once been happy with the friends I have and the relationships I take on, but I have never been FULLY content with having both at the same time. When I'm single, my friends become the most important people in my life. When in a relationship, that person becomes the person above all else. Family is a different story because they're constantly amazing, and I'm lucky to have such loved ones in my life. Although, why is it that BOTH parties can never balance each other out. I'm afraid to be in a relationship because I don't wanna lose and drift away from my best friends. But then again, being single has its downfalls as well and I miss having someone special. Ugh, its all such a blur to me. The solution is SO simple, but for some reason. . . I'm still dissatisfied in the end. I'm such a complicated person. Oh goodness, I am worrying too much again. I AM SO BIPOLAR.