thank you love, for understanding me, being there for me, letting me vent out to you. i rly needed that tonight, and thank you for everything. . . just when I thought I've given up on you, you do something like this . . .<3
You're amazing, there. . . I said it(: Hahahaha. I'm looking forward to this weekend with you(;
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
YKNW WHAT . . . its not even worth it talking about you, or her cos i'm not trying to waste my time talking about something insignificant. I juss wanna explain the fact that I was having one of those "off" days yesterday, and the blog that i juss deleted was only meant for MY eyes, but unfortunately I didn't delete it in time cos she had to fckn stalk me and read my shit. I'm completely okay now, I don't knw why I felt that way yesterday, I've moved on and been over that for so long now. So if YOU'RE still reading this, i would appreciate it if you STOP. I don't know you. I don't wanna know you. And I'm for sure that you DON'T want to know me, and what I'm capable of doing. I'm saying it nicely, PLEASE STOP LURKIN THRU MY SHIT! I need my space, and I have every reason for expressing my feelings on here, but I don't appreciate someone looking thru my posts every second of the day just because they're insecure. I'VE ENDED ALL CONTACT/COMMUNICATION with him just to ease your insecurity. MOVE ON WITH YOUR LIFE, and stop trying to find out about me, what I'm doing everyday, etc. YOU'RE JUST WASTING YOUR DAMN TIME. So STOP, I don't ever want to hear of you lurkin thru my shit ever again, I'M DEAD FCKN SERIOUS. I'm not trynna disrespect you at all, cos I don't know you, so do me a favor and STOP STALKING ME.
Monday, August 24, 2009
LAST FIRST DAY OF HIGH SCHOOL. . .
was NOT a very good day. i needa get my sched changed ASAP.
although thanks to erik for the in n out, kevin for the chipotles & golden spoon after school. wow i feel like a fatASSSSSS. omfg. but it made my day a bit better :)
I PRESENT YOU ALL . . . my future hubby GABE<3
*this one's for drew, cos he's always making me sing it over and over again. hahahaha<3
was NOT a very good day. i needa get my sched changed ASAP.
although thanks to erik for the in n out, kevin for the chipotles & golden spoon after school. wow i feel like a fatASSSSSS. omfg. but it made my day a bit better :)
I PRESENT YOU ALL . . . my future hubby GABE<3
*this one's for drew, cos he's always making me sing it over and over again. hahahaha<3
Friday, August 21, 2009
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
You used to be.
The one I'd call every night to talk to about nothing and everything.
The one I'd go to whenever I'm in need of advice.
The one person in my life who would never let me down.
The one who understood, above all others, the biggest and tiniest problems of my life.
The one I defended from others that talked down about you, mistreated you, &stabbed you in the back.
The one my parents saw on a regular basis and treated like family.
The one I'd spend every weekend with just going shopping, eating, talking, and we'd have a blast doing it.
The one I'd write notes to, to vent out whatever I'm feeling on a piece of paper, then in the end decorate it to make it look pretty, aside from all the random bs I was talking about on the note, lol.
The one to call me whenever something totally random happens, hang up, and go about the rest of your day.
The one who was my ride or die, who stuck with me thru all the bs that occurred, and never gave up on our friendship.
The one who I used to call my best friend.
But what happened to us? =/
I miss us. I miss having a best friend who chose me above the rest, but of course when you're in a relationship with somebody, that friendship tends to fade away, and the love of your life is superior to your best friend. I feared that this would happen to us, but every day I think about it, I feel too awkward to try and restore our friendship to how it used to be. It came from knowing each other so well to missing out on each other's lives and not knowing how the other person's doing. I believe we're different people now, and we're drifting more and more apart. It saddens me to say that, but we both know its the truth. All I have to say thank you, for being my best friend at one point in your life, for making me feel important, wanted, cared about. Of course I'd love to have you back in my life as my best friend, but we've grown apart, and have our own lives to live now.
The one I'd go to whenever I'm in need of advice.
The one person in my life who would never let me down.
The one who understood, above all others, the biggest and tiniest problems of my life.
The one I defended from others that talked down about you, mistreated you, &stabbed you in the back.
The one my parents saw on a regular basis and treated like family.
The one I'd spend every weekend with just going shopping, eating, talking, and we'd have a blast doing it.
The one I'd write notes to, to vent out whatever I'm feeling on a piece of paper, then in the end decorate it to make it look pretty, aside from all the random bs I was talking about on the note, lol.
The one to call me whenever something totally random happens, hang up, and go about the rest of your day.
The one who was my ride or die, who stuck with me thru all the bs that occurred, and never gave up on our friendship.
The one who I used to call my best friend.
But what happened to us? =/
I miss us. I miss having a best friend who chose me above the rest, but of course when you're in a relationship with somebody, that friendship tends to fade away, and the love of your life is superior to your best friend. I feared that this would happen to us, but every day I think about it, I feel too awkward to try and restore our friendship to how it used to be. It came from knowing each other so well to missing out on each other's lives and not knowing how the other person's doing. I believe we're different people now, and we're drifting more and more apart. It saddens me to say that, but we both know its the truth. All I have to say thank you, for being my best friend at one point in your life, for making me feel important, wanted, cared about. Of course I'd love to have you back in my life as my best friend, but we've grown apart, and have our own lives to live now.
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
I think too much.
I don't know how to start this blog. So bare with me here. . . We met in the most unusual way ever. Although, I'd say it's rather cute how we met, haha. Kevin & John didn't feel like riding the wet ride with me, so I went alone. . LMFAO I know right, poor me w/ my two bestfriends being pussy to ride the wet ride while I was so down for it, haha. Anyway, I was walking toward the line, when all of a sudden you asked, "Excuse me, are you riding alone?" I then answered, "Yeah, my guy friends are lame and they won't ride w/ me." Being so sweet of you, you asked me if I wanted to ride with you and your group. I answered YES even though I didn't know you, cos I just didn't wanna be a loner in that ride by myself with no one to enjoy it with. LOL. But anyway, it was ironic to me how we both lived in Las Vegas, and we live about 15 mins from each other. You asked for my number saying we should meet up again in Vegas sometime, so I gave it to you. I didn't think you'd actually keep in contact w/ me cos you were w/ your friends as I was with mine, on top of that, I didn't even catch your name, hahahah. About 20 seconds later, I get a text saying "It was nice talking to you, Christia. Why do you have to leave so early though? :(" LOL I had to leave early cos I wasn't supposed to be there in the FIRST place, lmfao. Anyway, we texted that whole night, that whole morning, and the rest of the days that came. It led from text, to finally talking on the phone every night. You'd always call me after I got out of work, but sometimes I'd let you call, ignore it, let you call again, ignore it, til you leave a voicemail saying you'll call back . . . Just to test the waters and see if you'd still be interested in me even if I didn't answer, haha ;D.
We'd never run out of things to say in our late night convos. One minute we're talking about our past, next minute we're talking about music, next we're talking about evolution and how we both think that 2012 is juss bs LOL, then next we're talking about how we're such fatasses and how much we love all kinds of food. Haha, it's amazing. Our first night talking is a night I'll always remember. You opened up to me so much, not even knowing me at all yet, but you told me about the most intimate parts of your life, like your family, your past, your hopes and dreams, I was just amazed by it all. I love how I'm so myself around you. I don't have to try and impress you, and you like me for me. I can be real around you, NO FAKE BULLSHIT, and you love that. I never thought I'd fall for you, but everyday you tend to break this wall down that I've put up, and I let myself fall deeper into you. You make me happy, but it scares me to be treated so good, cos I'm not the kinna girl who gets this treatment from guys. You told me you'd go out of your way for me, just to see me, just to be with me, and that FUCKING SCARES ME. That is why I don't think it'll ever happen between us. You're just too amazing, too nice, too considerate. But someone else better deserves this. I'm just not the kind of girl who's used to it. That is why I don't think it'll work. I mean, don't get me wrong. I'd love to be with a guy like you, but after all the heartbreak I've put up with, I'm scared to be with someone who treats me so good & makes me feel good about myself, cos I feel like its too good to be true.
Or maybe I'm juss thinking too much. =/
We'd never run out of things to say in our late night convos. One minute we're talking about our past, next minute we're talking about music, next we're talking about evolution and how we both think that 2012 is juss bs LOL, then next we're talking about how we're such fatasses and how much we love all kinds of food. Haha, it's amazing. Our first night talking is a night I'll always remember. You opened up to me so much, not even knowing me at all yet, but you told me about the most intimate parts of your life, like your family, your past, your hopes and dreams, I was just amazed by it all. I love how I'm so myself around you. I don't have to try and impress you, and you like me for me. I can be real around you, NO FAKE BULLSHIT, and you love that. I never thought I'd fall for you, but everyday you tend to break this wall down that I've put up, and I let myself fall deeper into you. You make me happy, but it scares me to be treated so good, cos I'm not the kinna girl who gets this treatment from guys. You told me you'd go out of your way for me, just to see me, just to be with me, and that FUCKING SCARES ME. That is why I don't think it'll ever happen between us. You're just too amazing, too nice, too considerate. But someone else better deserves this. I'm just not the kind of girl who's used to it. That is why I don't think it'll work. I mean, don't get me wrong. I'd love to be with a guy like you, but after all the heartbreak I've put up with, I'm scared to be with someone who treats me so good & makes me feel good about myself, cos I feel like its too good to be true.
Or maybe I'm juss thinking too much. =/
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